What is church? Who is church? It has taken many faces over time. We left our church after 10 years. Why? I'm not use I can explain it. But it kinda felt like an obligation. Randy's a great man. The people are friendly. But we didn't connect. Maybe it's us. Maybe it's just life and circumstances. Maybe it's time and the crazy things it does to people. Where is your definition God? Where is your design?
So I'm seeking but not crazy hard. We have been invited by a couple of people. But I want to be invited by God. People have agendas sometimes. It's like a movie recommendation by a friend. They got some emotion out of it that you don't get.I prefer God's agenda for my family. I'm looking for his invite. To be honest I like the break. No pressure to perform-to act like we belong, to fit a church mold. But already I have heard comments from people about us needing to be in a church. Why? We have small group where we discuss issues, pray, encourage each other. Do I need a larger body as well? Is having church and sharing God at home with my kids a bad alternative?
So God, give me a church ear filter. Tell me your thoughts. I've heard others... Where you go I'll go Lord...
Home church has been amazing! Summer has been busy and it's easy to wait for God's voice...now anyways. My future is full of hope. I'm very excited to see what happens. Until then...I'll do my best to enjoy every minute of the present.
ReplyDeleteKeep reminding me to enjoy the present baby. Cause it's scary sometimes. You start to believe people and feel rain showers of "not belonging" and guilt... Country club Christianity is comforting, familiar, and safe.
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